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Post by Eva McCorkle on Mar 19, 2008 22:16:02 GMT -5
It was a slow kind of evening. The kind of evening that Eva really loved, because everything seemed to be just perfect. It was beautiful outside, and she and Aidan along with Angee and Orion had just come in from a walk, complete with Abby and Trey. It was strange, having the kids around. It seemed like all of them were parents, even though Angee wasn't exactly Trey's mother, though she certainly was better than the one he had. But it gave all of them the feeling of just being one big family. Taking a walk, the four of them and their kids was just... fulfilling. It was like they'd gotten a head start on the rest of their lives, and Eva didn't mind in the least.
Abby was set up in a little high chair between herself and Aidan, and Angee and Orion had joined them at the Ravenclaw table, sitting across from them, Trey sitting happily on Angee's lap. They were all just laughing and talking and carrying on. They'd all been closer than ever since everything between Angee and Ryan had calmed down. They'd all gotten a strong grasp of the importance of family, and they all needed each other more than any one of them was willing to admit.
Eva was feeding Abby, making faces as she tried to get the little girl to swallow her food instead of spitting it up. She laughed a little, wiping Abby's chin before handing the spoon and baby food over to Aidan. "Your turn, dad," she said with a grin, pecking him on the cheek. Maybe he'd have more luck. Abby wasn't more than a few months old, and she was already proving herself to be quite the daddy's little girl. Which made Eva encourage Aidan even more to get off the meth. Which he still hadn't done.
She turned back to her own meal, smiling at Angee, who was sitting across from her, and Trey in her lap. It felt right to be here in this moment. Everything was just perfect.
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Post by Aidan Voltaire on Mar 20, 2008 13:46:53 GMT -5
Aidan felt so uncomfortable. He hadn't had a hit because he'd known he was gonna be around Abby so he was obviously itching for that. He couldn't stand sitting here with Eva right now when he, Angee, and Orion were all hiding the biggest fcuking secret of their lives. He just really didn't want to be here. And Eva seemed so damn happy. She was bright and sweet and just happy.
AJ really didn't know what to do.
Managing a bit of a smile when she handed Abigail over, he took the bottle from her and looked down at his daughter. God he couldn't believe what he'd done. Sure, at the time it had seemed like a really good fcuking idea. Now though--now that he was sober enough to think about it--he really didn't think it was so good anymore.
Still, even with that all going through his mind, he couldn't help but smile when Abby immediately took her bottle and calmed down her fussiness. Yeah--she was definitely a daddy's girl. "Come on beautiful show me those eyes," he whispered. Abby had gotten his eyes but they looked better on her. When she looked up at him he felt his stomach tighten. God he loved his little girl.
Aidan loved Eva too. But there was something weighing down on him that he just ... couldn't keep in anymore.
"Eva," he said, looking up from Abigail. "Eva I slept with Angee."
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Post by Angee McCorkle on Mar 20, 2008 13:54:46 GMT -5
Angee was content. In the past month or so, she'd settled into having a child around, and it was good for her. She'd mellowed out plenty, and there was no more beating on people with Trey in the vicinity. That had only happened, you know, when his mother had been around. At any rate, she'd developed a fondness for the little boy, and Orion had proved to be a wonderful father. What made Angee even happier was that Trey had taken an instant liking to her, and sh ewas glad. She wanted to be apart of his life.
Right now he sat on her lap, chattering away to herself and Ryan, and she was trying to get him to eat, which only happened when he paused for a breath and allowed her to shove something in his mouth. She laughed, shaking her head and handing him a napkin with a smile, eating some mashed potatoes herself before sending a smile over at Ryan.
She knew that they shouldn't be hiding their secret from Eva, but she knew it would be too hard on her. It would just kill her. And even though it might not be the right thing to do, Ang believed it was the best thing for Eva.
"Eva I slept with Angee."
Her head shot up, totally forgetting about Trey for the moment. She gave Aidan a sharp look. Was this boy in-fcuking-sane? What was he doing?!?
Her gaze shifted to Eva. Oh god. This was not good. This was not going to go well. Damnit, why couldn't Aiden just keep his mouth SHUT. They were all happy for ONCE and he had to go ahead and ruin. Damn him.
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Post by Orion Voltaire on Mar 20, 2008 14:04:35 GMT -5
It was weird. Orion had never thought being a father at his age--the father of a two year old kid, mind you--would be something he could grow to do well. However, he had been wrong. The last couple of months with Trey had been amazing. Angee was right by his side, too. Right now, Trey was on her lap and she was getting him to eat something though Trey seemed to want no part of food. He wanted to talk and he wanted to play.
Ry was playing chess with his son right now--and somehow he was actually losing. It had started off that he was letting Trey win but now the boy was actually managing to shove his face into the ground.
"Daddy," Trey said, apparently exasperated with his father after capturing yet another one of his fcuking pieces. "Mommy's better at this game than you."
Ryan kind of looked at him funny for a second. "You mom actually played chess with you?" He was confused when Trey shook his head.
"Nooo dad--mommy Angy." Orion's head snapped to Angee, almost disbelieving what he'd just heard. Had he ever said that before? And wait--Angee was fcuking mommy to him now? Oh God. Trey looked confused. "Does you not wanna be my mommy?" He was looking up at Ang now and Orion had to admit--the kid was good at the guilting game. That came from his dad.
"Eva I slept with Angee."
Oh fcuk.
Damnit Aidan couldn't keep his fcuking mouth shut for ONE god damn day?! Son of a BITCH. He looked at Angee and then at Aidan and finally at Eva. She had to know by the unsurprised look on his face that he knew. And that he'd also been keeping it from her. Which may not go over well. He and Eva were close (of couse, not as close as fcuking Aidan and Angee) and she might not like the fact that he didn't tell her. Or that Angee didn't. Or that Aidan waited until now of all fcuking moments.
Or that it happened at all.
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Post by Eva McCorkle on Mar 20, 2008 14:28:22 GMT -5
It was such a good day. Such a fantastic, wonderful day. So the last thing she expected to hear out of her boyfriend's mouth was that. Anything else. He could have said anything else. 'Eva, I gave the baby drugs,' 'Eva, I'm staying on meth no matter what you say,' 'Eva, I don't want to be with you anymore,' 'Eva, I'm taking the baby.'
Anything else.
But 'Eva, I slept with Angee'?
That just didn't work. She couldn't process that, didn't understand. He'd ... slept with her sister? She looked up, staring in shock at AJ for a moment before looking at Angee and then at Orion, who didn't look surprised in the least. Why didn't he look surprised? Oh God... had he known? Had he known and not told her? And how could Angee not have told her be-fcuking-fore? And why in HELL was Aidan bringing it up now?
"You..." She trailed off. She could'nt even say it. He'd cheated on her? Cheated on her. Had this been before or fcuking after Abby had been born. She looked down at the little girl and then back to Aidan, and then closed her eyes for a moment, opening them again. They all wore similar expressions. They all knew, it seemed, how she'd react to this.
And there it came. The inevitable tears that always poured when Eva got upset, or overwhelmed, or confused or angry. Even happy. Emotion just made Eva... cry. But this... this was horrible. It was a good thing she wasn't holding the baby, because she would have dropped her. And that would have been downright tragic.
"Aidan I don't... " she didn't understand. She didn't know what to say or do. This just wasn't... right. This didn't work, it wasn't right. She stood after a moment, looking around at all three of them. She wasn't sure what any of them expected her to say right now. She shook her head, tears pooling in her eyes and falling down her cheeks. "I... can't... I need to go."
Without even bothering to take Abby, she turned away. What had she done? What had she done wrong that Aidan had gone to her sister? What was wrong with her? Did he still want to be wtih her? What had gone wrong? All of that went through her head as she began to walk away from the table, to go hole herself up in the girl's dormitories and cry for a while. What she'd do after that, she didn't know.
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Post by Angee McCorkle on Mar 20, 2008 14:39:46 GMT -5
Angee looked down at Trey, raising her eyes as he noted that his mother was better than Ryan at chess. Honestly? That french bitch knew how to play chess? She had trouble believing that.
"Nooo dad--mommy Angy."
Now, that had to have been the cutest thing she'd ever heard. And the most confusing. Had Trey just referred to her as his mother? She just had to stop for a second, looking down at him and then up at Ryan, not saying much. And honestly, what coudl she say? Was that okay? Or was it a problem? Were they just confusing im too much?
"Does you not wanna be my mommy?"
"No... I... of course I..." She stopped. Well... this was overly complicated. "Trey, hun... you know that..." She got totally cut off as she turned her attention back to Eva.
"I... can't... I need to go."
Oh no. Oh fcuk. fcuking Aidan. fcuking moronic asshole.
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Post by Orion Voltaire on Mar 20, 2008 15:19:54 GMT -5
Ryan had completely forgotten about the "mommy" situation by now. No what was going on between his brother and Eva was a little more mind blowing. Which was sad because Trey calling his girlfriend "mommy" was a pretty damn big moment. Only something incredibly fcuking big could top it. And Aidan's dumbass had done it. What Ry couldn't figure out was why now. Why at this moment, why in the Great Hall, why when they were all around, just fcuking WHY?! The stupid cnut couldn't wait until he was alone so they could talk about it? No apparently that was asking too much of AJ's fcuking cranked out self? God fcuking damnit. Orion even felt the sting when Eva stood up to leave. At least Aidan was trying to do the right thing, right? He didn't want to lie to her anymore and he just wanted to show her that. In some obnoxious fcuking way that involved everyone else around him too. He looked at his brother, waiting. Aidan seemed to be at a loss for what to do. "Get up you fcukin' cnut! You started the shit now fcukin' fix it!" Trey started to talk and Ryan shot him a glance that told him to stop before he started. His son had a bad habit of repeating all the swear words his dad used. "Daddy why's Aunt Eva so sad?" Orion didn't know how to answer him. " Daddyyy!" Fcuk. "What." " Whyyy is Aunt Eva crying?" Ry looked at Angee. How did you explain to a two year old boy that his aunt was sad because his uncle had slept with the girl he now apparently thought of as mommy? Yeah--that was his problem too. Finding the words for that. Not to mention he didn't think Trey should know that anyways. "We'll talk about it later," he lied. Trey's attention span was just like his. Let something go long enough and he won't remember it. Which was good because Ryan wasn't telling him what was going on. Absentmindedly he moved a piece on the board and listened to Trey giggle as he took another piece. God kids had it so easy. --------------------------------------------------- Aidan knew as soon as the information was out, Eva would cry. He knew that's what she was like. He'd figured on her crying but he hadn't figured on her trying to walk away from him. He couldn't yell with Abby practically asleep in his arms by now. But he needed to get her attention. He needed her to hear him out. That day hadn't been what she thought! He was out of his fcuking mind and Orion had just beat the living piss out of Angee! It was a one-time-fluke thing. She had to know that. Standing up carefully, barely hearing what was going on beside him with Ry and Trey, he shifted Abigail in his arms. God damnit he'd gotten himself into some deep shit here. He could've not told her. Kept it inside and never told her. Eva would've never known the difference. She wouldn't be walking away right now. For once in his life, AJ was at a loss for words. Nothing substantial was coming to him. Just fcuking songs. That seemed to be how Eva dealt with everything--write another song. Guess it was only natural he seemed to be doing it now too. She'd rubbed off that particular quirk on him. "She's everything I'd ever want--Everything I need. Talk about her I go on and on and on. 'Cause she's--everything to me."Aidan didn't have a great voice, hell he didn't even have a good voice. But he felt like Eva would understand better if he really fought for it. (OOC: assuming here sine your not onlin xD) Eva stopped walking and he breathed, a bit relieved. Granted, that meant SHIT right now since she could stop just to yell at him. Or to leave him. Or anything of that nature. But she'd stopped. Taking careful steps, his daughter in his arms, he walked up to her. There was regret in his eyes and that regret had been there since the day it had happened. He hated it but she knew now. He wasn't hiding it anymore. "Eva--hear me out for a minute." He didn't know why she should, but he needed her to. He just needed her to stand there. She didn't even have to say anything. "I didn't want to do this knowing that I was lying to you. I didn't want everything to start like that. I mean--I can't defend what I did and I wouldn't try to. It was a stupid fcuking mistake." Abby stirred a bit and he lowered his voice. "Sweetheart I've been thinking lately. Since Abby was born. Maybe before that I don't know. But I knew that until I told you, I couldn't do this." Even with abby in his arms, he managed to get down onto his knee and shove a hand into his jeans pocket (which almost pulled the damn denim fabric down the rest of the way), procuring a small, plain white box. "Eva I love you. I love Abby. I love the three of us together. I want it to be finished though--no not like that. I said that wrong. I want it to be the three of us for the long run. Eva I want you to marry me." His proposal was unorthodox right down to the way he'd asked her the question (which had really been more of a statement) but that's how AJ was. He never had been a textbook kind of guy. They both knew that much. Slowly, he opened the box, having to use his chin to do so with Abby in his other arm. He didn't know how this would go over, whether it would seem like he was doing it out of guilt or not but he wasn't. After all, why the fcuk would he carry a diamond ring around with him if he hadn't planned on this eventually? ---------------------------------------- Orion was flabergasted. "Dude she'll never say yes. She can't." He looked at Angee with wide eyes. |
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Post by Eva McCorkle on Mar 20, 2008 15:54:22 GMT -5
She was walking away from the man she loved. Because apparently she wasn't good enough. Apparently, like always, her sister was more desirable than her. Apparently, yet again, she simply didn't cut it. She wiped tears from her eyes as she walked away from the table, not even bothering to look back. She should have taken Abby first, but she didn't want to cry in front of her little girl.
"She's everything I'd ever want--Everything I need. Talk about her I go on and on and on. 'Cause she's--everything to me."
She stopped. Was he... really? Months ago, when she'd still been pregnant, he'd surprised her by learning to play guitar and writing that very song for her. That song which he'd sung in the complete privacy of the dorms on her birthday. She was still facing away from him, but she heard him walking towards her and swallowed hard, turning around and attempting to choke back tears.
"Eva--hear me out for a minute."
All she could do was shake her head, but then seemed to change her mind and nodded softly, slowly. As he spoke, she wasn't looking at him, but at Abby, and only half processed everything he said. She didn't really start hearing him until he got down on one knee.
"Oh no," she murmured. She took a deep breath, closing her eyes for a second. Jesus fcuking christ. Oh god.
"Eva I love you. I love Abby. I love the three of us together. I want it to be finished though--no not like that. I said that wrong. I want it to be the three of us for the long run. Eva I want you to marry me."
She opened her mouth, then closed it again, closing her eyes yet again and shaking her head. She opened her eyes, looking into his for the first time. She didnt' answer his question.
"What... did I do... wrong?"
She knew she was making a scene, she knew this entire situation was making a scene, and that practically the entire Great Hall was watching her break down while her boyfriend propossed. God, this was happening all wrong, for all the wrong reasons. If he said he wanted to marry her, then why had he cheated on her?
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Post by Aidan Voltaire on Mar 20, 2008 22:56:35 GMT -5
"Wrong--Eva you didn't do anything wrong." Aidan hated this. She fcuking blamed herself for this shit which was retarded. "I was high as a fcuking kite and my brother had just beat the shit out of Angee. Neither one of us were thinking about it. Eva it wasn't something that happened out of boredome or feelings. It happened because of pure, straight, libido. It had nothing to do with you and it had nothing to do with what I feel for you."
He knew she hadn't answered him but that wasn't going to stop him. If he had to, he was prepared to wait. Aidan was prepared to ask her again and again and again and again until she realized he wasn't dicking around.
Realizing that he could get off the ground--at least for now, he shifted Abby until she was on his shoulder and rocked her a bit. She didn't like this whole jarring her around thing. Or maybe she could sense the fact that her parents weren't doing so hot right now. Who knew. "Sweetheart it has nothing to do with any of that. I love you. Angee and I don't even fcuking get along. She's a bitch.
"Eva, it didn't mean anything. And if we hadn't been in the same room at the one fcuking particular moment, it wouldn't have happened. I can't take it back I don't know what else to do." His voice started getting a little louder and Abby tensed up. Shit. He pulled her down into his arms, cradling her again, and bounced her a bit. Her face was screwed up but she wasn't squalling yet. Aidan was lucky she liked him or she would've been screaming by now.
Surprisingly, he wasn't a bad father. In fact, he was pretty damn good at it. And he'd been using less and less since Abby had been born because he found himself wanting to spend time with her. And he'd promised Eva that he would never be around her while he was high. Still looking down at her, he continued.
"Eva I know it was a mistake but I couldn't keep it from you. I could've. I could've gone on through all of this and asked you to marry me and never told you. But I couldn't do that. Because I love you god damnit."
For once, he was really glad he couldn't yell. He had a feeling this was one of those situations that yelling only made worse.
"Marry me Eva. I'm not letting you say no. You're the only reason I'm not fcuking dead right now. I figure I've got to keep you around. Marry me." He'd continue asking. He'd do it a hundered times in one fcuking sentence if he had to. If she was worried he was only asking her because he felt he had to--she'd eventually stop thinking so.
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Post by Eva McCorkle on Mar 20, 2008 23:09:52 GMT -5
Eva shook her head. It didn't matter. He could keep apologizing, could keep asking her, but she couldn't say yes right now. It didn't matter what he said, because in her mind he couldn't use meth as an excuse. He'd been doing that for too long now and she was sick of it. She wanted him to stop, because clearly all it did was fcuk with their relationship. Like it had been for the past two years.
She glanced over at Angee. She'd slept with her boyfriend because she was pissed at Ryan? Oh yeah, that was a great solution. Ruin your sisters relationship because your own wasn't fcuking working out. fcuk her. fcuk him. fcuk Ryan, for God's sake. How in the fcuk could he have just not told her?
She was still crying, and it was starting to make her angry. Maybe she shouldn't be crying. Maybe Aidan really wasn't worth crying over right now. Or ever. Maybe none of this was worth her time. She looked at the baby. Except Abby. Abby was worth her time. But she couldn't take her from AJ, she loved him too much.
"I can't marry you, Aidan," she said softly, after several long minutes of silence. "Not now." Not ever, damnit. Why couldn't she just break UP with him and get it damn overwith. He wouldn't even tell her what she'd done wrong, why he'd had to go to her sister instead of her.
"I can't... ever marry you." She finally choked the words out, wiping her eyes and blinking as her makeup blurred with her tears. "Apparently you've got plenty to keep you alive. I'm sorry, but I.. I am. I'm saying no. I can't do it, Aidan. I can't do this anymore."
She was sick of him hurting her. She was sick of being hurt and then having him turn around and say he was sorry adn her just taking him back wtihout a second thought. Yeah, she loved him, but it wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth any of this, and she simply couldn't handle it anymore. None of it was worth all the heartache she was forced to go through. The man you got married too wasn't the person who made you cry all the time. And she couldn't deal with that, not anymore.
She'd let him see Abby. She wasn't goign to take away his little girl. Maybe then at least he'd get himself straight. Maybe. She took a deep breath. Just a few minutes earlier she'd been so happy that all of them, all 6 of them, were such a happy family. And then this had to blow up in her god damn face. fcuk it.
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